Monday, 10 November 2014

Back Pain Diaries

Thank you for visiting Back Pain Diaries blog.

I suffered a herniated disc L4/L5 a few years ago and this blog is now dedicated to the posts that have proved helpful to people:

Notes on a Lower Back Herniated Slipped Disc this can be found on the tab above the blog space as a separate page

How We Understand Pain

Pain and Meaning - slipped discs and pain scales


I am very pleased to announce that, following the posts on this blog appearing on the Two Views of your Body Website  and, as a consequence, thousands of requests for my full pain diary from my back injury, I will be publishing a longer article in the near future entitled:

Back Pain Diaries - what really happens when you hurt your back.

The long article will include a full diary of my back pain and my experience with pain, painkillers, movement, mood and exercise. The article will be available on Amazon and all other digital outlets. I will be posting update of my progress up to publication - check back for updates

Friday, 15 April 2011

Pain and Meaning - slipped discs and pain scales

It's been six months now since I suffered a 'slipped disc'. The searing initial pain has faded now, replaced by an uncomfortable tugging on my sciatic nerve. One thing I have noticed is that almost everyone I know claims to have had a 'slipped disc' at one time or another.

They mostly tell me this when they are carrying very heavy boxes or running for a bus, balancing on one leg or leaning forward. Sadly, these are all movements that I cannot, and will never be able to, manage. When I enquire about leg numbness and walking problems, I am met by blank stares - their own 'slipped disc' did not endow the weird feeling of body dissociation on them.

So I decided that I would research what, exactly, 'slipped disc' meant. Damage to a disc in the lower back falls into several categories. A bulging disc is where the disc between the vertebrae pokes out and touches the sciatic nerve, causing intermittent pain. A herniated, or prolapsed, disc, is where the jelly in the disc squeezes out and makes a lump between the disc and the sciatic nerve. This causes damage to the sciatic nerve and affects areas of the leg relating to the position of the damaged disc. My herniated disc at L4/L5 (as above) caused numbness of my right lower leg and my right foot. A bulging disc is not the same as a herniated/prolapsed disc.

The pain associated with a herniated disc is severe. However, because the generic name of 'slipped disc' is given to all these disc conditions, it is sometimes interpreted as a twinge to the sciatic nerve, which is more likely to be a bulging disc. So, not only are you in severe pain, but many people are relating your condition as something that is associated with less pain.

This generic terminology comes from generalisation of pain. Whilst we need some kind of generalisation in order to develop medicine, some data sets that tell us that a condition is common to many people and needs attention, this is at odds with the human experience of pain. The individual expression of pain is an important communication tool, an vital part of us telling another person that we are injured. Whilst some pain scaling tools tell us that someone is in pain, a scaling of 1 - 5 does not tell us anything about their experience, how this affects their lives.

The question 'is it hurting?' from a doctor, answered in the affirmative, or even from 1 - 5, elicits a prescription for pain medication; it does not tell him that one morning four months ago I woke up crying at having to endure this for another day, or felt desperately sorry for whoever had to put my socks on for me.

The meaning of pain is not 1 - 5. High or low. Good or bad. Severe or minor. It is woven into our everyday experiences as we try, in a world that is very different from our pain-free world, it makes meaning of the new difficulties faced by our health.

I went back to my doctor for my six month check up yesterday and asked when the pain would go completely. He told me that it wouldn't. He asked me how bad it was, high or low, 1 - 5, and prescribed me painkillers. He said that what I have is a lifelong condition. I nodded and smiled and swallowed back the tears until I got outside the surgery.

He didn't ask me about the difficulty I have walking and how this affects my job, or how I can't bend to lift my baby granddaughter, or how I'm so exhausted after a day at work that I can't visit my family. That's what pain really means.

I've got a set of exercises, the McKenzie Stretches, that a physiotherapist taught me and, for the time being, these are keeping severe pain at bay, along with the TENS machine; I'm feeling a whole lot better as my back heals and I improve my posture and strengthen my core. I actually feel lucky, because at the beginning of this I was told I might not walk again; I'm beginning to smile again now and my life is back on track.


Writing it down has helped, writing all these experiences in a note book that, now, I can put away and hopefully never have to go back to. And in the future, if anyone every asks me how much my 'slipped disc' hurts, I'll give it them to read and hope that, instead of making an assumption based on a medical stereotype, they will understand how I and my life were affected, and what this meant to me.

For my notes on lower back herniated slipped disc please click here